Today is always a little rough for me. it's been 13 years and I still get really down :( It seems to never really get any easier. Sure time has numbed a lot of the pain, but I still feel the anger and the grief and the what if's... I don't normally open up about my feelings and especially not for anyone to read about. But I've been trying to make a lot of changes in my life and maybe opening up is part of what I need. When I think about my Dad I think Strong, funny and full of life, I also think weakness, disappointment and death. I was always Daddy's little girl! And I'm mad at him for not being here for me. I wish that he were here to watch my children grow and be a part of their lives. I wish that we could make more memories, but I just have to hold on the memories that I have. Dad was always so fun and I loved spending time with him. I alway wonder what he would be like today, if he would have changed art all....my guess is no :)
Thank you for letting me share. I love you Daddy and I miss you every day!
We had a good time up Clyde Creek again this year! It was pretty cold but we stayed bundled up. Brooks enjoyed lookin for Elk and playin with the dogs! It snowed one night and Brooks had a blast throwing snowballs and eating ice cicles. He loves riding the Polaris and the Rhino, it always puts him to sleep :) He loves to Ride Homerun the horsey and roasting marshmellows but hate them when they get burnt. When it was too cold to be outside or even by the fire we stayed in and played with playdoh, watched movies and played games. We ate some good cookin and enjoyed spending time together! It was a nice trip :)